A little bit of an update...

I have contemplated posting for months, and I’m going to be as brief as possible…..

- I have a left vertebral pseudo aneurysm. No clue how to fix it or what to do about it, still looking for answers (today makes a year since we found out about it) I was told to be a boring Mom.. no sky diving (which I had planned on doing).. no roller coasters (which I loved).. pretty much no working out/running (no half marathon for me)…no neck manipulation (no physical therapy as of right now either! which I had been doing for my next issue)..

- I have post concussion syndrome.. which I have had since at least high school…(just diagnosed in the last few years though).. so if you have heard me going crazy at a sporting event about a kid hitting their head… this is why. 2 weeks is NOT enough after a concussion, to be back out on a field or court, period.

- I have an undiagnosed autoimmune disease… I have fibromyalgia, adhd… etc..

- In the last year we have figured out that I am extremely allergic to smoke, especially cigarette smoke! So if you smoke, and I walk away, or cover my nose, it’s not to be mean or anything! I will be back, just know I am not being mean… just have to walk away for a few :)… if I smell cigarette smoke, or any smoke at this point.. it turns into a migraine. Then my migraine turns into a vestibular migraine, which usually leads to a hospital visit. Soooo I’m not being mean, just trying to save us from a hospital visit!

- I am a recovering alcoholic (might be shocking to some people, might not be to others)… I have only had one little slip up, back in 2019*.. before that, I hadn’t drank since May of 2014… this year made 10 years* … I don’t mind being around drinking, it doesn’t bother me anymore..and if it does start to bother me, I am able to take myself out of the situation.

- I still use oils every single day… and on top of them, I also had to add in a medication… this meditation leads to weight gain… zero fun…

- If you see us out and about and wonder why I’m not being talkative, or why I am being too talkative, it’s probably one of those many reasons ^^^

- This month will be 12 years without my Daddy… it doesn’t get any easier at all.. but we see signs from him daily. If Jesus wants to come back sooner rather than later, we would be fine with that.

- Also, if you see us out and about and I look completely normal… occasionally the stars do align for me to be slightly normal-ish.... but just know the next few days I will be down and out.

- Our daughters are our life, and if you mess with them, none of my above listed issues will matter… I will go full out Momma bear mode. And there’s no stopping me when it comes to them, or their father. Period.

- I was trying to turn comments off…. this isn’t for sympathy or attention, this is just a FYI sort of post.. so maybe I won’t have to explain myself as much to people in person lol.. mental health is exceptionally important and I need to try and protect what tiny shred of sanity I have left.. but it won’t let me turn comments off, unless it’s a public post. We don’t post much for many reasons… and making this public is just not gonna happen lol..  SOOO… If you do end up commenting, please know that I may see it, or react to it. But I may not have the mental capacity to actually respond! And I’m sorry for that! (Not sure how comments work on a blog yet, haha, still learning)

- There have been many other ups and downs the last year…. Many heartbreaking things, many God sends… I have lost people (figuratively and just in our everyday lives).. but I know who our circle contains, and I protect that, and don’t mind that our circle isn’t the same as it used to be. Does it hurt, yep, but I also know I am not in control of anyone else’s feelings or motives. I don’t know the big plan.. There’s only one person in control of that, and as much as I would love to try and help, it’s not up to me.. it’s up to the big man upstairs.

- I could keep going on, but honestly this has pretty much wore my brain out lol…

- Oh and… we really love animals and it’s amazing therapy, and incase anyone is ever around, all of our animals are dogs or cats…And Josh’s therapy, is my kitchen re-model and house addition………iykyk

- Lastly… good job for reading all of that